Mother’s Day 😞

Today was tough. I cried, and I screamed. So far it has not gotten easier. Having a living mother that’s absent is hard. Especially when she mothers people that she didn’t birth. I remember growing up waiting for her to get out of jail. I thought she’d come get me and we’d be a family again. But nope nope nope. And yes I have mother figures. Or people I can go to. But it’s still not the same. I have learned to accept that I’ll never have the mom I desired. But that doesn’t take away from the pain that I feel. Last year I ignored my feelings for a few reasons. But this year I feel alllllllll the feels.